It is easy to fall into the trap of being overly critical. As an insider you know why things are done a certain way. Often it is a compromise, where you know there is a better way, but at the time, this was the best you could get consensus with.
As an outsider you look at it without context and think.. boy, that is stupid.
I'm pretty free with an opinion and happy to comment on something if it is either in my domain of expertise or if asked. It was put to me - "Don't you like it here?" by someone that I really respect. This wasn't a jibe or a snarky comment, it was a legitimate observation and made me step back and think. I responded, "What choice do I have? I'm not able to move until I make a success of this."
I know I'm pig headed and will continue long after others would give up. I need a good success to progress my career and this is a wonderful opportunity to make a difference.
Is that how others perceive me? Are my comments overly critical? Have I become one of those people?
Do I like it here?
I gave myself a break and thought, I've been somewhere that I have great memories of 13 years, transition is hard. I've been criticised from the minute I entered my new school by the team I need to own - it hasn't always been pleasant.
I wasn't sure. My enjoyment of teaching has on occasion been from interactions with admin and teachers, but for the most part it has been with students. Was I getting jaded because I felt like I wasn't making a difference?
Being action oriented I did something about it and surveyed my kids, nothing special, a survey I found on the web. The results were great and lifted my spirits significantly. Far better than when I surveyed myself. I could answer a different question now, "could I like it here?" Absolutely. If the kids can see benefit in my teaching style, they will provide the impetus for me to follow through on what evidence makes obvious.
I then presented the survey results to Admin. This is what I have in my classrooms. Admin need to be confident that I can walk the walk. This will lead to them backing my judgement when I say something needs doing or in supporting something I have done.
I talked to my team. You're a good teacher? Here's a survey - don't tell me from anecdotes, go check and bring back the results. There are the benchmarks, my classes, the most difficult class of last year and an ATAR class being taught in a different way. If you're not getting better than that, come talk to me and we can discuss what worked for me. If yours are better in some areas, I have something to learn too.
I went and spoke to those I considered experts outside the school on next steps refining our delivery. We put together a plan of attack.
I had my fire back.
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I'm beginning to like it here.
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